Tuesday, March 2, 2010


for some reason, yesterday i was just happy—everything was joyful. i feel like i usually am a happy person most of the time, but this time there was something a little different. i can’t quite put it into words, but it was just joy, pure joy… inside and out.

the little things that usually annoyed me at work or just frustrated me (people not tipping, or unpleasant people that were just mean for no reason), they weren’t getting to me. very easily, i was able to brush these off, put on a smile and move on to the next table. it was so nice and it worked out because i had many other tables that were very pleasant, so the silly stupid ones were drowned out.

after work, i came home dancing. i was singing and excited to watch the finale of The Bachelor. i made some homemade oatmeal chocolate chip cookies and gleefully shared them with my friends. though i was disappointed with the outcome of The Bachelor, i quickly accepted his choice, moved on, and went to bed reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.

i think the difference between this happiness was that it was coming from me—no other outside sources (friends, family, school, work, boyfriend), from me. my soul. the inner workings of the joyous spirit inside me.
it’s beautiful and wonderful to feel JOY.
i want to feel like this everyday… so i’m going to! i choose to be happy, joyful, loving, and spirited!

Saturday, February 27, 2010


dear universe,

i will play Belle one day…. just wanted you to know.

thanks for setting that up for me.

much love,


Monday, February 22, 2010

the universe works in mysterious ways...

as a waitress i make a lot of observations… mostly about the people that i serve. some are nice and some are mean. some want everything in certain way and some are easy going. some are loud and some are quiet. some are great tippers and some leave without paying a dime. some won’t let the other person talk and has to order for them and some can make decisions for themselves. some like to talk a lot and some like to be left alone. some like to complain and some are content… it’s really interesting and it’s actually one of my favorite parts of my job—to observe all the different kinds of people in this world. it’s almost like i’m getting a tiny glimpse into the everyday lives of all the guests that sit in my section. i really enjoy it.

well, this last saturday i came into work with my usual monotonous way of thinking—“another day at work. get in and hopefully leave with some good money.” during the middle of my shift, i had a family of 4 sit in my section—a mother, a father, and their 2 kids. making my usual observations to my tables, i noticed they seemed very nice and were probably not going to cause me any more stress than i had already been dealing with that day. as soon as i delivered their food, and placed it on their table accordingly, they stopped me and said, “cami?”

replying with my immediate response to my guests, i said, “yes, is there anything else i can get for you?”

they sweetly replied, “well actually we were about to say a prayer on our meal today and we were wondering if there was anything you would like us to pray for you about? relationships..? school..?”

i immediately stopped in my tracks and a flood of emotion caught up with me. “you know what, yes. if you wouldn’t mind including me in your prayers… there is something…” i then proceeded to tell them about how i had been patiently waiting (and slightly stressing) to hear back from my college to see if i could be awarded more scholarship money so i could return this fall. they asked me a few questions about school and why i moved here, and we began to share a small part of our lives with one another. it was really nice to talk with them and see that some strangers wanted to pray for me and my scholarship money. it truly touched my heart and sort of put my mind to ease about school stresses.

i returned to their table after they had finished their meal, with tears in my eyes and told them they were suppose to come into my life that day and i thanked them for sharing their sweet spirits with mine.

the universe is so powerful and it really does work in mysterious ways—bringing certain people/experiences into our lives every moment of everyday.

everything happens for a reason.

thank you, Father/Higher Power/Universe/all things. you are sincerely amazing.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

life lessons i've learned this week: accepting

anger, stress, and depression are results of not accepting the present moment.

by accepting things for what they are, rather than what we want them to be, we can live at peace.

accepting = peace and love.

not accepting = fear and anger.

we must choose to accept things as they truly are to live a full life—live every moment.

i choose peace.

i choose love.

i choose acceptance.

…i’ve always known this to be true, but for some reason there is this little bug that likes to crawl into my body/soul/mind and stage as “me.” making decisions for “me” and living “my” life. well, today i realized that i am not this “bug”… i am me. i am cami. i am powerful and strong. i am joy and love. so, i’m thanking the “bug” for coming into my life and showing me this powerful message: to accept all things as they are. now that “bug” can leave and go find someone else to “pretend” to be, because i have re-discovered me today and i’m going to live my life.

Thursday, January 21, 2010


i just finished watching this. LOVE IT!

my sister and i would watch this movie together. it makes me miss her.

it's a good "sunday afternoon movie" mmmm :)

can life please be as simple as Jane Austin intended it to be?

i want to wear pretty dresses everyday, pick strawberries, drink tea, play the piano, go on walks and carriage rides, write letters, and only worry about when the next party is.

oh and did i mention that i want to marry Mr. Knightly?

Saturday, January 16, 2010


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